I’ve been thinking that its time to take inventory. Not of the paintings hanging in my gallery/spare bedroom, or of the canned goods rusting in my cupboard, but to look inward, take a look at my goals, my achievements, and my priorities. It’s something that is easy to put off, though, and continue as I have been, but sometimes things happen to spur us to change.
Yesterday, as I mingled with friends in the church foyer, I noticed a group of people gathering outside. Moments later, word spread that someone had collapsed in the parking lot. CPR was administered, and an ambulance called, but by the time it departed, it was evident that the victim, the mother of a good friend, had passed away.
Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.
Life is short, and regardless of our short-term plans and long-term goals, there are no guarantees ahead of this very moment. I want to eliminate (or at least reduce by a great degree) the phrases, “Just a minute,” and “Not right now” when regarding my children’s requests. I have to make the choice that matters more in eternity, even if that means putting art, writing, blogging, crafts and home decorating (all current passions) on an indefinite hiatus.
As my daughter and I start pre-K homeschool tomorrow, and I pursue a more structured schedule with my children, I hope that I will be able to manage my free time well enough to keep art active in my life. If my creativity is limited to crafts and children’s games, I want to be okay with that, to let my fulfillment as a parent AND as an individual be found in sacrificing myself to love others and put their needs ahead of my own. It’s not politically correct (where’s the “me time” in that?) but I believe it is integral to the character of my ultimate role model, Jesus Christ.